David and I have had several talks of late concerning my job. This has been the hardest year of my short teaching career. All along I've been trying to figure out what is making it difficult. There have been individuals and actions that haven't been enjoyable or easy to adjust to, however, my job isn't that bad. Last night after a horrendously long day, David said that in his graduate class they were talking about jobs and job satisfaction. He said, "There are two types of people: People who hate what they are doing, and those who love what they do but not where they do it." THAT'S ME! I love what I'm doing...really...but it's the environment surrounding me that I dislike.

Way back in graduate school, I had a 5 week teaching assignment in a rough school in inner city Pittsburgh. Those 5 weeks I felt nauseous, anxious, and dreaded every minute of my experience. The kids were precious and I wanted to help them, but the environment of the staff and administration and school culture simply didn't jive with me. Those same feelings have resurfaced only with my current position.

My time to move on has come. I'm ready for something different, something new, something part-time? I'm tired of being tired all the time and no energy to spend on taking care of my loved ones. I've had enough and just enough is PLENTY!

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